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"I'm not scared"!!
"I'm not scared"!! No one know what lie's ahead, we sometime fear the unknown! I feared failure for I failed many times. I put my best foot forward, and try not to have mishaps, but I had quite a few. My failure wasn't intentional, who goes out to do something wrong? Am I making any sense? But today, I'm not scared! There was a time I stress and my stomach got messed up by it, I had to take an acid relieve because of it. I dreaded next week, while I was in this week. I worried too much and my mind played tricks on my body This is not a good thing! I got to plan, but I haven't figured out what it is yet, but with luck I will! In the mean time, I'll just try to have a strong mind. I wasn't dealt a winning hand, but there a times when I'm victorious. i know people never flew on an airplane, they feared death! I guess maybe onetime, I feared death too. But now since I don't fear death, I have no reason to fear anything else! I'm in a good place. In a few years, I can get a little retirement, I can now see a little light at the end of the tunnel. i still have bad days, so when I do, I take a mental health day off. I feel blessed, and what keep me going I have faith. Faith at times is the only thing that keep me going, if I don't have this I would be scared! I don't go to church on Sundays, I don't live a Godly life, or in the front row. I'm at home on the side lines. I feel like I got a kitchen pass. There's got to be a method to the madness! For I'm still standing. Maybe there a purpose I exit? Who know? I saw death twice in my life. First was a car accident, at a young age, I seen life without me and came back. The second, I was cross with a psychopath that wanted to kill me. This was the scariest time in my life, for I saw my life flash before me, from cradle to grave. For that day, he was supposed to kill me, but i got a pardon from up above, and some people showed up and I escaped death. I feared day that day, because I felted a 13 year should live to be older, God must has thought so too. Now, I'm blessed, I lived a good life. I'm still lack skills in many way. I try to treat people right, I always try to help other and be a good man! I'm not perfect by no means. I have the love of my friends and family, I hope I have no enemies. I hope I haven't wrong anyone, I'm not in the best health, I'm a little over weight, and I still have depression. I always did the best of my abilities in life, and try to do a honest day of work for 40 hrs a week. I hope to live a longer life, but all I can do is to live life! For only God's know how my story ends. So whatever lie ahead in my future, whether life or death? "I'm not scared" riddle time: What is so fragile that when you say it's name you break it? ans: Silence What does this represent? |R|E|A|D|I|N|G| ansquot;Reading between the lines." |
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No one what lies ahead of us Scoupe. You will know when it is time to retire and the right time to do so. Just make sure you have something in place that will keep your time busy. Enjoy!! Hugs V Become a blog watcher sweet_vm
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There is not much I am afraid of....I sometimes wonder if i have always done as much as I could have done. I hope you get to enjoy your retirement when the time comes my friend. ~~Anais Nin~~
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Life is what u make it .
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I hope you live a long and happy life and are able to enjoy your retirement when its time to retire..
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