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Repairs Necessary A Poem
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Posted:Jul 13, 2019 9:03 am
Last Updated:Jul 13, 2019 9:54 am
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I told him I was going to be okay. After he told me he was going away. He had found someone else Someone more suitable. Who held more appeal.
I know in my heart of hearts That he was not the man for me. He had regrets that haunted him He had an ex that he would Jump at the chance to be with If she gave him that option.
But he had given me just enough For me to see a future. Ah yes that little sliver That my mind worked with. I am not a gold digger But I could see myself Living with him In the house he planned On renovating. He showed me the pictures. The beautiful lush green lawn That my dogs could run around on. The master bedroom With a master bath With a jacuzzi tub And separate shower Just like in the mansions I have only seen on television.
I kept thinking I would need A place to write He was making himself An office. I could just as easily look Out a big window With my desk in front of it.
It has been years since I had this much of a picture To build on. I live a pretty minimal existence. Perhaps that is one of my charms I am happy with peanuts. And so that is what I get. And for even that little I show much gratitude. My manners are nearly impeccable.
So the dreams flourished. How he would come home from work How I would greet him. How we would have dinner And then one thing would Lead to another. How we would fall asleep Me with my pussy Full of his semen. Then waking up! Ah the morning sex! We both have a thing for that!
But then he met someone else. Someone who met his criteria On some finer level. But he wanted to remain friends. He did not hate me. He probably felt pity. They often do. It makes me wonder If there ever will be Someone who can share Their goals and dreams And not take them away. To share with somebody new.
So what do I miss? The physical stuff yes. The dreams I had of us That will never come to be. Those combined will take Some time to leave And be replaced.
But if he can find someone Shouldn't I think I can too? I shouldn't think myself Totally worthless and unlovable. But somehow I do. The job men do on my self esteem It is never fully repaired From one to the next. How could it ever be? It is such a tall task. I could keep therapists Employed for years. Until they retire Of old age. And some have.
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Just Another Why Bother. A Poem
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Posted:Jul 13, 2019 2:40 am
Last Updated:Jul 13, 2019 8:22 pm
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Just another Losing proposition Just another fling Or one night stand. Can I really afford The damage it does To my self esteem And heart? That is the question I have to ask myself.
Why bother going along If I know the result in advance? Why bother proving Myself wrong? When the chances are Slim to none? I may not have a crystal ball But I sure have enough Past experiences To know the signs And particulars. I know enough that The man would have To be open minded In a certain regard. I will try to get that information Before I go forward.
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Take Me On A Journey With Your Words A Poem
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Posted:Jul 13, 2019 12:33 am
Last Updated:Jul 13, 2019 8:05 am
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If you were here What would we be doing? I have some ideas But I am asking for yours. Take me on the journey With your words.
You would see me Looking at you. Watching you speak Your lips move. Your eyes expressing What is in your soul. I can discern things Am I right that There is lust As well as love?
That in itself Makes my heart beat So fast that it is About to explode. Yes my darling You make your very own Brand of dynamite. Should I buy it wholesale? Or in bulk like at Costco? Or should I buy just One stick at a time. No shortcuts or sales But what is the return policy? I doubt I will ever want to know. Why would I return anything That satisfies me so?
A journey with words Yes we can go! I know you have a flair For description I can barely wait To hear what You have in store In that gorgeous Mind of yours
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While It Is Fresh A Poem
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Posted:Jul 13, 2019 12:06 am
Last Updated:Jul 13, 2019 12:07 am
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While it is fresh In my mind I want to write it down No I need to Would be more accurate. It is a need to note How I have felt And what I have thought. Yes it is marking the moment That is my life. In this case With an exclamation point! As I am thinking of someone Who might just love me In return. Yes! Reciprocation! At long last! Write that fresh thought Write about that feeling The wondrous one! Before it is gone!
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Feasting At Our Festival A Poem
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Posted:Jul 12, 2019 9:09 pm
Last Updated:Jul 13, 2019 7:41 pm
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He puts me in my place. The place I want be. In front of him Lying naked Waiting on the bed. His eyes peruse me Feasting practically Making us both Wet our lips simultaneously.
His naked body Giving my eyes Their own feast. How I long to sink my teeth Into parts of him. Ha! Okay, I will be gentler And just nibble a bit.
Mmmmm we murmur in unison As he leans forward And our lips meet His body pressing into mine. Ah! Finally! Now we can begin!
On to more moans More kisses, More touches And caresses. We are feasting What a festival! We are celebrating! It's just our ability To be sexual!
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Filling The Void Of Silence A Poem
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Posted:Jul 12, 2019 12:24 am
Last Updated:Jul 13, 2019 12:37 am
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Filling The Void Of Silence Written in 2017
There is a void I try to fill Call me simple But when there Is silence I can't help myself I start talking It may just be A nervous habit. But I can talk and talk I hope it is not Too annoying Or awkward More than the impetus Which was the silence.
An awkward silence Filled with nonsense Pardon in advance. I hope you understand Don't expect to be profound But it could happen As thoughts fly As do words And I could just Spout philosophy If the mood demands. Demand may be Too harsh a term It is just going With an idea. It is not hostage taking.
Perhaps one should take note If words fail That is when they Should worry. For that would mean I am bereft Quick someone Jump in! Throw in your two cents! I will be glad to share The task of void filling.
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A Closed Window A Poem
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Posted:Jul 12, 2019 12:12 am
Last Updated:Jul 12, 2019 12:17 am
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Closed Window Written in 20
Gone, It was not meant to be, A short window of time was open Now it may be closed permanently.
It hardly had a chance If we are being completely honest. It would have required heavy lifting But no crane could be found. It would have required moving Mountains And no bulldozer was around.
After careful consideration The terms of agreement Could not be met A reneging of obligations That would never have been kept.
In the first place. In the second And third Arguments for and against Points to be taken Each side heard But none concurred.
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A Swan Song Of A Massage A Poem
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Posted:Jul 12, 2019 12:07 am
Last Updated:Jul 13, 2019 8:11 am
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It will come to be It has been discussed Many a time. So finally the stars align Well nothing so magical It is just that he finally Could fit me Into his schedule.
A long ago lover Is coming for a swan song. He is coming to give Me a massage. One that I loved Him to perform From 3 years ago. The man has done Some things for me Helped me through Some tough times. Understood where I was coming from Offered encouragement For my continued progress.
He is moving away To California. His ties to NH will be severed There will be nothing left. I will have memories Some pleasant Some heartbreaking. He is a man after all. They all seem To have that affect.
We can have this swan song. We can make this moment. One of our treasured ones. It might not be the most magnificent It might not be a highlight. But it will be one that we lived. Yes, we participated. Instead of just fantasized. We made it a reality. When the stars aligned Or more aptly There was time.
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A Life Reflected Upon A Poem
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Posted:Jul 12, 2019 12:02 am
Last Updated:Jul 12, 2019 12:44 pm
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A life reflected upon Maybe too much. Is that where The sadness comes from? Is that when empathy grows?
I feel the pain I feel the sadness I see it in others. Their pain apparent.
I see and feel I feel and then I see If the world is watching me. Probably not. I am nobody. Unless I speak. Unless I tell the tale Unless I let others know.
A life reflected upon A life not lived to the fullest. How could I When I have been thinking So very much. How can I live to the fullest When I am beset with pain And sadness?
True they are not meant To be mountains. But speed bumps. They are not meant to choke And cause asphyxiation But be hiccups. That can be stopped By changing one's breathing.
When I am in this kind of mood What I would not give for a hug! For some comfort For someone to tell me That everything will be alright. Or at least that the follows night Darkness can be pierced with light. Pain and sadness are not insurmountable. They can be overcome.
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Putting Happier The Song Into Practice A Poem
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Posted:Jul 11, 2019 9:37 pm
Last Updated:Jul 11, 2019 10:43 pm
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A song comes on the radio. Yes I still listen to the stations That are local. The song Happier By Marshmellow. Featuring Bastille.
I had only heard But had not Concentrated before On the words. Just making note Of the overall idea Of wishing someone happier.
Then I came upon it After a YouTube selection Of the Imagine Dragons. Song Believer.
And there went my heart The effing words So God Damn poignant The tears came too How could someone Write this impossible Breakup song? And expect folks To keep calm?
I watched a few versions. The first one the lyrics. Goodness they tear At one's soul. How can anyone be so Self less and let go? How can someone Wish their former lover well? Wish them happier And to smile?
Then the next version Was a story of a little Given a for her birthday By her Father. An adorable Golden Retriever puppy. It grows with her And as you know don't live as long As us humans. Their life span lucky To be between one And two decades.
So she has to let him go. And who will be happy now? I can't put the words To the story except She ends the dog's suffering And he is free to roam In some land unknown?
The story comes full circle As the is now a And her Father gives her A Golden Retriever puppy For her birthday. Making the now grown Woman tear up And of course any of us Sad saps watching.
Thank you for the reflection Of this song and concept Of wishing happiness For people or pets leaving us. It is a good idea I suppose But so very hard To put into practice Yes so very hard To be so self less.
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Two Great Dates For The Time Being A Poem
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Posted:Jul 11, 2019 8:29 pm
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2019 6:41 pm
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A man who was going to be A man who did so much for . He has now gone away But not for the usual reasons Of the cavalier men I have recently met But for a medical one.
It is not life or death At present But it does need To be dealt with. Requiring surgery. So he flippantly said I will be in touch after it.
It was only two dates But they were On the whole rather great. I know that he said A lot of complimentary things. Saying I was wonderful And awesome.
He was the one I wrote about in A Lovely July Night And Gloves In case you were wondering.
So now our getting together Will be put on hold For the time being. He has the surgery And then recuperating. It could be months Before that can happen.
If nothing else ever comes From our brief encounters I will be forever grateful For the companionship When my mood was so low. After another guy Found me inadequate. This guy found me great. Just the opposite.
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How I Want To Make Him The Happiest Of Men A Poem
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Posted:Jul 11, 2019 8:18 pm
Last Updated:Jul 11, 2019 11:47 pm
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He understood my sentiment How I wanted to make him The happiest of men. I think he had it In his mind To return That happiness in kind.
I can see it! All the kisses. All the affectionate gestures. Random hugs Touches and squeezes. I told him my idea And he agreed that it Would be his preferred actions.
If only we were closer Instead of hundreds of miles. If only we had different circumstances We could make this real.
But in the interim We have our dreams! And our conversations. They do leave me with A fuzzy feeling. And a smile on my .
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The Best Person They Know A Poem
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Posted:Jul 11, 2019 12:46 pm
Last Updated:Jul 11, 2019 11:49 pm
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The best person they know I bet many folks Say that about you. You give so much Of yourself. You offer your time And valuable wisdom But not in a judgmental way It is always about caring And showing someone There is an alternative. Show someone they Can be more positive And should make Changes the better If they at all can.
I can't thank you enough For what you have done for me. You were there when I needed To talk to somebody. You lent an ear and I am sure Had we been together in person You would have offered hugs And your shoulder.
I wish there were something I could give to you That had an equal worth. I feel that my thanks May not be enough. Maybe someday I will come Up with a plan To you back For all your kindness And caring. It would be something That I would want to be A surprise and unexpected So I will leave it at that. Although I am open To suggestions.
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